So today is my birthday. I always loved my birthday and couldn’t wait for it for all the wrong reasons – couldn’t wait to see if anything fell out of my birthday cards to spend it on shite clothes I don’t need. Couldn’t wait to rip through presents to see what was inside. All of a sudden, this year I don’t care. I’m sorry but what the fuck? Why am I not an immature, selfish girl anymore? Is this adulting?
Before I write anymore there is a 83% chance I am about to have a mini breakdown writing this, so just bare with me. The very fact I have to now say mid to late twenties instead of early twenties knocks me over completely. I definitely have to tick a new age box when filling out forms now…
What happens when you turn 27? When I was younger the age 27 was the age I associated with girls who had purses full of credit cards, engagement rings, perfect jobs and big beautiful houses. Now that I am at that ‘scary’ age, what the hell was I thinking? There is something about the age 27 that makes me feel like I am being forced into being a grown up. Like, don’t get me wrong, I have my shit together enough – I live with my wonderful boyfriend (puke, sorry), I love my job and I love all my little hobbies and I am by all means happy, but what is it about being 27 that makes me feel inferior? Like, I still don’t feel like an adult but I guess I technically am.
Being 18 was amazing what with the whole I can drink legally thing. Being 21 was amazing as I was living away from home in Scotland, living my best life and again, can drink legally everywhere. If anything I felt more like an adult at 21 than I do now at 27. Maybe because I was single at 21 I felt a little more independent as opposed to now where I need to split that rent or else I would be eating ramen noodles all month.
There are certain things that I feel I just can’t get away with now that I am 27. I really can’t forget to make a payment on a card, I can’t go into my overdraft because that’s completely ‘irresponsible.’ Also, it’s not okay for me to not watch the news anymore. I don’t like watching it because it is just full of terrible news, but at a certain point it just isn’t funny that I don’t know what’s going on in the world.
I was in Tesco buying drink for my birthday, you know… my 27th. I wasn’t ID’d. I don’t look old, I don’t look young but I was still very offended when I didn’t get carded. Then I thought, I would have been over the moon when I wasn’t carded when I was younger, how can it irritate me now?
I think I am just pissed off that I can’t blame being young if something goes wrong. At a certain point, I need to take responsibility and unfortunately I think that’s now. I have been known to have a slightly self destructive pattern in the past however, instead of ruining lives I am now adulting hard and the only thing I really ruin are my plants. Seriously, I can’t keep those things alive and if anyone has any tips – other than simply watering them – please let me know.
I mean, I have learned a lot in the last 27 years most of which I documented in another post 26 things. 26 years. and I am so thankful for that as it has made me who I am today bla bla bla but unfortunately, I think that that has made me an adult.
Also, what’s with having more money when you’re still in school than now?